One Year Ago Today
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Written on 2/18/2009 8:22:36 PM.
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| Picture taken 2/18/2008 | Picture taken 2/7/2009 |
There are defining moments in life when you take a deep breath and know that your life has changed forever. Luckily, I was able to take a deep breath grab the hand of the man I love and take in the moment of meeting our son for the first time, a year ago today. When I go back and read the post from a year ago and I just remember sitting in a small apartment trying to come up with "proper" words to share with friends, loved ones, and supporters that we had never even meet, who read our journal so diligently. I remember just sitting there in awe and amazement, trying to replay the wonderful day we had just spent with our son. It had taken us such a long and hard journey to get to that amazing day - now a year later I am still in awe and amazement of this little man.
Over the past year we have truly learned what love is and the depth of the human heart. I remember telling Dave and a close friend that my heart should not hurt this much between trips. We were so connected to this wonderful child and after we were home and settled, it was clear that we were a family and we were going to make it.
I remember the fear of "are we going to have a child?" – Yes. And I am the luckiest Mommy in the world.
I remember the fear of "are we doing the right thing?" – YES. No matter what anyone said – and yes some people questioned it.
I remember the fear of " can I do this?" – Yes with love and help we are doing it.
I remember the fear of "am I going to love this child?" – Oh yes, and so much more. Deeply.
I remember the fear of "will he love me?" – Yes. I can see it in his eyes every time he calls for his "MAMA"
A year ago we walked up the stairs at the baby home and saw a naked little boy standing on a table being held up by one arm curiously peering out the door before it was closed quickly by staff. Our wonderful translator turned to us and said, "That is him. He is gorgeous, no?" Now we walk into his room and we still see those beautiful brown eyes looking back at us smiling with his "blue bear" - still gorgeous and curious.
Zach has gained over 12 pounds since being home. He has grown… I don't even know how many inches! I cannot tell you how many outfits we have out grown. Several skint knees, boo boo's on fingers, scary falls that made my heart stop just to see him pop back up with a grin on his face ready to do it again. We could also talk about the transformation of a clean backseat to the mess you see today – I digress. Whenever people ask me how Zach is doing, I always say "Wide open". This truly sums up Zach. He is wide open! He loves to walk and walk some more. He points to outside, grabs his hat, and is ready to go. Unless, he wants to watch the Wiggles… Don't get me started on the Wiggles. But, I will say this; Zach loves to watch the Wiggles. He will go to the TV point and does the wiggle dance. Very, very cute I might add.
I cannot begin to tell you everything that we have made it though over the last year. The overwhelming outpouring of love and support from people you did not expect it from. And of course, the horrible ignorant questions and lack of support when you thought you would have it, still hurts even today. This past year of becoming a family has been the best year of my life. Seeing the pure joy on my dad's face when he sees his grandson just makes my heart burst with so much pride and love. The transition from being a couple, to becoming a family has been a wonderful awakening of the person I strive to be every day. Zach inspires me to be a better mommy, wife, and person.
Ok so the real reason you are here…. Pictures…. Here are a few of my favorite pictures from the past year since we came home. Just a few! I really love taking pictures of my little guy!
Picture taken 5/31/2008
Picture taken 6/4/2008
Picture taken 6/13/2008
Picture taken 7/1/2008
Picture taken 8/6/2008
Picture taken 8/21/2008
Picture taken 9/28/2008
Picture taken 10/26/2008
Picture taken 11/27/2008
Picture taken 12/8/2008
Picture taken 12/25/2008
Picture taken 1/31/2009
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